'Porters and Hurricanes

I have gone through 2 divorces. They were both very difficult. First when I was a teen with my parents, and once myself. They are life changing events that really no one likes to talk about. So I wanted to write something from the man’s perspective that will hopefully start more dialogues. A father and a husband go through so much mental, financial and emotional anguish during divorce. What was their world and life is abruptly stripped from them, and nobody really cares. We are so lost at times- treading water in the ocean- and many men never get a life preserver.

Often times this blog will be uncomfortable. Because divorce and all it’s elements are uncomfortable. But once we get beyond the drama, there can be a beauty and a happiness for everyone involved . For some, it’s that “getting beyond” that seems an insurmountable task. The dark cloak of divorce can be suffocating. I know I made mistakes. You are about to read many. Hopefully I can save others from making the same dumb choices. But here’s the ironic part: My divorce was the best mistake I ever made. Was yours?

Fortunately, I made some very amazing positive choices too. And you will read those as well. I promise it won’t be all doom and gloom. This blog will be fiction with a sci-fi twist and surprise, but trust me, there will be a lot of true life and actual occurrences throughout. For my family’s sake, I didn’t want to make a non-fiction autobiography for many reasons. But much of what you will read did occur. Personally, I think I added some fictitious elements so I would never have to confess what is true. Maybe I will some day.

Thanks for reading. I look forward to hearing what you think.

Sam

So I go through all the prompts to make a collect call from jail. So many prompts. The phone finally starts ringing. I hear Angela start to say “hello” but she was cut off by the automatic message. I never wanted to hear her voice more and the automatic message lady’s voice less. “You are […]

So before I tell you about the crazy act of teleporting for the first time and what it felt like for me, I’m going to take you back to when I went to jail for owing $1100 in child support. Remember that a few chapters ago? Well I hope so because I will never forget. […]

Let me be clear: This is not a ex-wife bashing podcast and blog. This is a divorce bashing podcast and blog. Divorce sucks. I want to make it very clear that I am an integral part of my divorce sucking. I was an unfaithful husband, I was very untimely in paying my child support, I […]

Very often, I speak way before I think. It’s a very bad habit of mine. Sometimes it can be very funny things that come out of my mouth, and sometimes they are very inappropriate. Sometimes they are very profound. Then there are other times when I just say something that is plain stupid. Suggesting I […]

I don’t think I’ll ever get over this teleporting thing. I don’t just mean “the gift” itself….that alone is overwhelming and unbelievable. Three of my kids can teleport from one spot to another. That’s a sentence that no father ever says ever. But it’s also the act itself that is really hard to believe. You […]

It’s funny how my frightened heart becomes less scared as each one of my kids begins to learn to disappear. When Craft was the first, I thought I was going to have a heart attack. Then when Sage did it, I was definitely freaked out, but in seconds she re-appeared on that rock, so it […]

So right before our eyes, Sage disappeared just like Craft did. I can’t emphasize enough how extremely weird and uncanny it is to see your son or daughter standing in front of you, and then the next second you don’t. We as humans just don’t see something like that every day. Certainly we see illusions […]

This is one of those moments when you actually think this can’t be happening. No way. I’m in a movie or a nightmare. This isn’t real life. But as you have to turn around to the officer so he can put those handcuffs on you, you realize this is real. You really are about to […]

“Ms. Porter,” the judge asks, “Do you have anything to say?” I look over at my ex and I see the emotions and tears starting. I don’t know if they are real or fake, but I’m thinking to myself: “Why is she crying? I’m the one “on trial” here!” Regardless, she starts in, sniffling and […]

So here we are in ”divorce court” both approaching the bench to the judge. I saw her on the other side of the courtroom when I walked in, so I decided to sit on the other side. I mentioned last chapter I saw her previously in the court halls when she said “I hope they […]

So to keep you in suspense on whether my step-daughter Sage reappears back to this world, I’d like to take you back a few years. Back to about a year or so after my separation and divorce. It’s a big struggle for me financially. Those years between 2008 and 2012 were tough for everybody. I […]

It wasn’t more than a second…and there appears Craft- right in the middle of us! It was at that moment again where I noticed that smell of burning feathers- or something burning. Is it flesh? Goodness I hope not! I also notice a small bit of smoke- like a very small cloud… or that smoke […]

So the pandamonium is still ensuing. Everyone is screaming and yelling and crying. We were six, and now are suddenly five. My step-daughter Sage has always been the loudest, though. She should be an opera singer or something. She can really bring it from the diaphram. So over everyone else’s voice, she yells: ”EVERYBODY BE […]

So I’m just going to warn you that there will be many times throughout this story where I have to be descriptive and flowery with my words so you really understand what I’m going through, while at the same time I really want to freak out! Why? Because my son just vanished! That’s why! But […]

”Thanks for helping me not hit that tree, Stouten,” Hops says up to me as we walk back to the car. “You moved like Superman!” ”Well you’re welcome, buddy,” I say back to him. ”I wish I could move like Superman.” That was the first thing said since we left the bottom of that hill. […]